Buttercup Buildup

Even though it blizzarded (it’s a word… on the prairies it’s a word..) all day, I still went to the Taboo Naughty but Nice show (white knuckle driving FTW) and did my 2 burlesque sets at 4 and 9. 

I was SO nervous when I first got on stage for the 4PM show! I don’t get nervous. Whether it’s belly dance or burlesque, I just don’t get nervous about performing. I get a little obsessive about having time for costume changes, but not for the actual dancing. I got on stage this afternoon and could not stop shaking! And it never occurred to me to be nervous until I got on stage. Then I was like “holy shit, this is scary, dudes!” But it went well and the 9PM show went even better - the place was packed! It’s always a little weird seeing people you work with at the sex show, so I just didn’t make eye contact with them, lol! 

I got a really nice under-bust corset from one of the vendors that is sturdy enough to do a little waist training in, but also with enough give that if I dance in it, I can actually move. I think I might wear it over a blouse to work sometimes. There were so many other things I wanted to buy, but I’m a little on the broke side, so I told myself that I could only get a corset. 

There wasn’t enough time for me to sit in on the rope demonstration, which is too bad, because I kinda wanted to try out being tied up. :) But we did get to see some hot exotic dancers (a little bit too close, because the Bottoms Up girls ended up being the creepers right at the front of the stage). No stripping though, because this province has dumb, antiquated laws about serving booze and showing boobs. Now that I’ve seen it live, I can definitely say, I don’t get the fascination with pole dancing. It’s just not sexy. I can appreciate it, because I know it’s hard work, but the aesthetic just seems lacking to me. I way prefer free form dancing/floor writhing to that. 

Then I came home to a message on Facebook from my favourite Auntie, saying that she hadn’t heard from me in a while and hoped I was doing okay because I seemed depressed lately. I want to print it out and staple it to the forehead of all my friends and family with a footnote that says “SEE???  This is what you do when someone you love is hurting!” There’s a reason why she’s my favourite. :)

But I am exhausted now. Some of the younger people in my dance group were going out yet tonight, but I was like “I’m a tired old lady who still needs to drive home in a blizzard. I need tea and yarn now.”

Good night!